Life-changing decisions ahead

So, I’m finding life really difficult. I want to drop out of french immersion (I’m aware of how stupid that is, five years of it only to quit when I have one course left) but I can’t because there are no other courses available and I need all possible credits. I’ve signed up for an online course, but I’m on a waiting list, so that’s probably a no-go. I feel so stupid, I just don’t know the language. There are two ways this can work out. Either I’ll drop the course and regret it for the rest of my life, always wondering if I could have done it if I hadn’t been so damned lazy and fatalist, and always being bitter about not having the benefits of a bilingual certificate (which I know I can’t get from the governments testing), or I’ll stick with the course, possibly passing but bringing my average down so much that I can’t get into a decent university.

I don’t want to be in this position, but it’s completely my own fault. Maybe, if I try hard enough, I may be able to succeed.

I think I need to do this.

I just hope I don’t end up regretting it too much.