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alandreaChronic is dead. It's sad, but it's good as well; she was in a lot of pain. When I saw her last night she was mewling with every movement. I think she died at around two in the morning, but I can't be perfectly sure.
It's been hard. My parents didn't want to deal with the body, and they wouldn't let me bag her earlier. They felt they needed time to say goodbye or something, and they would start bawling whenever they went close. I said goodbye to her when she was alive, and I've been preparing myself for her death. I didn't want to sob over her corpse. In any case, she was just bagged now. Mother came into my room and told me that she'd put the stuff out for me, but when I tried I couldn't do it. She'd gone stiff and toy-like and I couldn't bear to touch her. So I called mother down to do it instead, and she spent so long crying over it so loudly that everyone was alerted to what was going on and I wished I'd just been strong enough to do it myself without the terrible fuss.
We're going to have her cremated, and then we're going to sprinkle the ashes somewhere.
I'm going to shave my eyebrows off. It's what the Egyptians did when a cat died, and long ago I promised that I was going to do it when she died. When they grow back in, I will feel better.
It's been hard. My parents didn't want to deal with the body, and they wouldn't let me bag her earlier. They felt they needed time to say goodbye or something, and they would start bawling whenever they went close. I said goodbye to her when she was alive, and I've been preparing myself for her death. I didn't want to sob over her corpse. In any case, she was just bagged now. Mother came into my room and told me that she'd put the stuff out for me, but when I tried I couldn't do it. She'd gone stiff and toy-like and I couldn't bear to touch her. So I called mother down to do it instead, and she spent so long crying over it so loudly that everyone was alerted to what was going on and I wished I'd just been strong enough to do it myself without the terrible fuss.
We're going to have her cremated, and then we're going to sprinkle the ashes somewhere.
I'm going to shave my eyebrows off. It's what the Egyptians did when a cat died, and long ago I promised that I was going to do it when she died. When they grow back in, I will feel better.
